I had a twin

Ramai yg tktaw sbenar ny ak ada twin..Tp umo dy tkpnjang..Dy mninggal masa bru lahir lg..so,ak pn tkpenah tgk dy..
Wlupn ak tkpnah tgk dy,tp ak asa dekat ngn dy,,ak asa mcm ak penah hidup skali ngn dy.Pnah ak t'pk mcm mna muka dy,seiras ke ngn ak kn..Asa ny mesti seiras kn ngn ak..
Klu lah dberi pluang,ak idup ngn dy,mesti bez kn..Nk g mna2 sma2,mkn sma2,tdo sma2,,mesti tknk bpisah kn..Tiap msa ak da teman,tkla boring sgt kn idup.Tapi ak tima ketentuan Allah.
Penah dulu masa ak skolah rendah,,buat bnda yg tkmsok akal..maybe sbb rndu sgt kt twin ak..Masa 2 ak bli belon yg leyh terbang 2 kt ekspo.Blek kt umah bla pg 2,ak 2lis sumting kt belon 2..Ak dduk kt pin2 blakang umah,ak lepas belon 2 ke udara...Taw pe hrapan ak..."semoga adik kmbar ak dpt bca pe yg ak 2lis kt belon 2"..
Ak mmg tkleyh igt kt twin ak,mmg akn nangis..tah la,kdang2 tkfham gk sdang kn ak tkpnah idup skali ngn dy pn..mngkin sebab kami penah ada dlam 1 kandungan mk ak..thats mean,kmi bersama gk lh kn slama 9 bulan dlam kndungan.Sbab 2 prsaan syg n rndu ttap ada..
Tears in Heaven..mngkin 1 lgu yg ssuai tuk gmbr kn prasaan ak.Klu ak dengar lgu niy,,msti igt kn twin ak..aK bru dgr je lgu niy,sbb 2 lh tringat nk 2lis entry niy...

Lagu niy eric clapton yg nyanyi,dy cipta sbb dy khilangan ank dy.anak dy mti msa umo 4 taun sbb jtuh apartmen kwan istri dy....Cdeyh je dgr lgu niy,,tp bez.. 

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I’ll find my way through night and day
’cause I know I just can’t stay here in heaven...

Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please...begging please

Beyond the door there’s peace I’m sure
And I know there’ll be no more tears in heaven...

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...